Sigh.
I know, this calls for Regina George again.
The logical part of me (which I'd like to think is most of me... eh...) is telling me to shut the eff up about it. I mean, seriously. Who cares about two or three stupid pounds, except me? It's a number. My clothes fit exactly the same. I look exactly the same. I weighed 35-40 lbs. more than I do now at this time last year. Three pounds is not a big deal. There is no actual reason for me to be upset about it. None.
Yeah, but I'm still a little annoyed about it.
I knowwwwwwwwwwww . . . shutupshutupshutUP.
But if I can, let me briefly state my case.
I don't want to allow myself multiple weeks of letting it all go routinely (like over vacation), pretending I can eat anything I want and not care about tracking or making any attempts to stay within my food routine. I know eventually I'd like to just eat to satisfaction, and know what my body needs, but I can't do that yet. I have too many bad habits that I've accrued over the years. When I have no accountability, it leads me to make bad choices. So - I don't want to let myself do that over and over.
I don't want the weight I've lost to slowly creep back. I mean, this is not something that keeps me up at night, by any means, but it's definitely something that happens to people, and I don't want myself to be one of those people. A told me I was being a little silly about this - I have not gained any weight since coming back since the holidays, after all. However, I don't want to gain a little over Christmas, a little over Spring Break... and so on. I don't need more excuses or to start that slippery slope.
I DO want to maintain within the same weight range of 140-145, and do that over a considerable range of time, to prove to myself that I can maintain. I haven't really done that any other time I've lost weight, and I really think this time, I'm keeping the weight off.
Given those things, I do want to give myself credit for some good things that I did over the winter holidays and have continued to do now.
I've continued to weigh myself. Whenever I've gained weight before, I've stopped weighing myself and pretended like the scale didn't exist - I was always in denial. I've continued to monitor my weight throughout the entire time I've been maintaining my weight to make sure this doesn't happen again, and I'll continue to do so.
I didn't go completely crazy over winter break. Sure, we ate out a lot, ate a lot of desserts and stuff, but it could have been a lot worse and I could have done a lot worse. So I'm giving myself a break.
I also kept up workouts and running throughout that vacation. We went to the gym when I was in Las Vegas, I worked out and ran in Sacramento, and I ran and went to the gym in Oregon. So that was pretty awesome!
So maybe I'm being stupid about two or three pounds, maybe not. As of yesterday, I tried lowering my points on Weight Watchers by a little bit, and I'm going to see if over the next month or so, I can drop those two or three stupid pounds. And if not, if I continue to stay the same weight, then perhaps, as A told me yesterday, "Maybe your body just likes to be 146." And if it does, I'm going to be okay with that.
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Okay, now on to something totally different. I'm having a lot of trouble figuring out what to make this weekend for the following week. I've been perusing some favorite websites, and I have a few contenders:
Emily Bites Creamy Pasta with Sausage and Mustard Seeds
Emily Bites Creamy Lemon Tortellini Bake
Skinnytaste Slow Cooker Turkey Italian Meatballs
Emily Bites Slow Cooker Beef Stew
Skinnytaste Linguini with Sauteed Scallops and Peas
Okay, so help a girl out. Poll is here. Vote for what I should cook! Aaaaaaaand, go!
Happy *almost* weekend everyone!
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