Oh Geez

I haven't been very good about writing here recently, have I? Sheesh.

(thx lizlemongifs.tumblr.com)

Blerg.

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Well, in food world, I've continued to struggle with my love/hate relationship with sugar. (Surprise!) It's just that the boundary between not wanting to deprive myself and not wanting to go overboard seems to shift quite a bit. In the past two weeks or so, I've seen the number of treats I'm eating creep up, which came to a head over the last weekend when my family and I headed to Nashville to see my sister graduate from Law School (Congrats, girlllll). But many desserts were had.

I mean, they were good desserts.

And for the record, the ice cream was from Jeni's, and ABSOLUTELY AMAZING.

But as I've said before, for me, desserts tend to propagate more desserts. When I allow myself to have something, this internal dialogue goes on: "Like, okay, I might feel deprived if I don't have one. I'll have one. Oh, now I want another one. No, you shouldn't. Well, maybe I'll feel okay if I have two. Two is not too bad, that's a good amount. Oh, those were good. But you can have more anytime you want, you're not depriving yourself. But it was good! So maybe just one more is not bad. No. We're not having more now. We're not going to have any more. Not today. You need to not eat those. Ugh, those candies are going to stare at me from the table. Mmm, sugar. Yum."

Do you see how that dialogue wold get exhausting?

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So I'm off sugar, all forms of sugar - including agave, maple, honey, raw honey, brown rice syrup, stevia, what you will - for two weeks. That started Monday. No sugar, and (GASP) NO ARTIFICIAL SWEETENERS EITHER. No sugar even in things in any form.

It started with this challenge, and I've decided to do two weeks rather than 10 days though. I've never totally cut out sugar, not completely, and I feel like I need to get it out of my system completely and then see how I feel. I've always known that I have this mental and physical dependency on sugary things, so I feel like everything has just come to this point of cutting it out entirely. I feel like it's the right thing for me to do.

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Whelp, we're on day 3, and I haven't died yet. I will continue to update you as the two weeks go on!